I Am Far To Sweet


Diabetes Word Cloud

I have not been blogging lately because I am not feeling very positive about my body and with this being a “body positive” blog I thought it was not a good idea.

Three weeks ago I went to the eye doctor for a routine eye exam. He was surprised to see that my vision had improved drastically. I was pretty excited about this, he was not. Apparently, a change as significant as the one I had could indicate an elevated blood sugar. He sent me for blood work. I did not want to go to get the blood work done, I didn’t want to know the results. I understand that as a fat person I am at an increased risk for many illnesses, one being diabetes. I felt like I had come such a long way with accepting my body and the fact that I am fat. I felt like I had come to an understanding with my inner self that I am what I am and I should learn to accept myself and love myself. I did not want to see that I was diabetic. I reluctantly went and had to blood work done. I got the results a day later, I am not diabetic yet but I am very, very close to having the condition.

To say I was devastated  sounds really dramatic but I was. I still am. I am really upset with myself and with what I have allowed to happen to my health. I am at a loss as to how to change what I have done to myself. I am researching and reading as many things as I can to learn how to fix this problem. Since I got the results, about 2 1/2 weeks ago, I have cut out all fruit drinks and sodas. I have removed all sugary treats from my diet. No cupcakes, no cake, no donuts, no cookies. I have increased my intake of fresh fruits and veggies. I have cut out all fast foods. It has been very difficult but I feel like I am making progress.

There are so many websites, books, articles, blogs, YouTube videos that discuss how to cut sugar out of your diet. The difficult thing is that they all say something different. Some say fruits and veggies are good sugars, some say to stay away from fruit but eat veggies. Some tell me certain oats and grains are good, others tell me that I cannot have oats or grains. I am at a loss and so confused. I want to get this right, I want to get my blood work done again in 3 months and see a change for the better in my blood sugar levels. I am sure that a visit to a nutritionist would help me resolve some of my questions but that service is not covered under my insurance and I simply cannot afford to pay for a nutritionist.

With all this being said, I am looking for some help. Have any of you ever had to deal with this issue? How did you make changes? Did those changes help? Do you have any book or website suggestions for me? I will take all the help I can get.

Thanks Everyone !